Thursday

This week was so intense. I have had much better weeks, but I am okay. I have been suffering from the learning curve this week, and I have had so many reminders of things that I am still learning and need to remember for the future. Melanie, has been in touch with me and I have been checking things off my list with her.
On top of all this, Nancy is out on vacation and so is my supervisor. I am on my own. Thankfully, the division administrator is here. She and I had an impromptu meeting about the events of the week and she said, they were good learning experiences. We had a nice chat and I feel so much better now. I am glad I can talk to her. I have a little agenda for Phyllis, when I talk to her on Monday. I will be so happy when tomorrow gets here, because it will be Friday!
Yesterday, Wynn came down to see me and she talked me down off the ledge as always. She is the best. She really is such a great person and is always there for me to learn from and to vent to. She helped me with a few things and I am just truly grateful for her. I was going to call her and ask her to come down, but she was there first thing in the morning. She must have a radar. I checked out of here at at my normal time, since I had work study. I went to he gym did some running and walking, and machines. Then home, to eat a potato and be a slug.
Today, I just feel so much better. I really do. I feel like I can slow down and forgive myself and not be too hard on myself, and just learn from my mistakes. I read this morning, that Mercury is in retrograde, so that means that there are going to be some miscommunications, and technology might fail. This is going to last until August 19th. Tiger’s eye is good for protection. I know you may think oh my goodness, Danielle you are crazy! ( at least that is what my mom said…) No, I am very spiritual. I won’t say taht i am uber religious, but there is some truth to spirituality I believe in it. There is a supernatural world out there, and honestly it sort of makes sense to me, and I find myself I am drawn to reading about it and learning about it.
This afternoon, it has been okay. I feel refreshed and rebooted. This evening, I am going to pick up the house a little, and get ready for my parents to come over tomorrow. We are going to have a movie night. I will have more for you later.

Spring Schedule Meeting

I spent the entire morning making sure I was prepared and ready for the Spring schedulers meeting in the afternoon. I had a couple things Nancy was going to print out for me, but I feel like I could have always been better prepared. Sometimes they ask me things, that require a computer and Nancy said I didn’t have to bring my lap top, so I didn’t.
At lunch, I took my Louie the 14th biography back and picked up three books Jane Austen’s Northanger Abbey & Mansfield Park. I also picked up Atwood’s The Handmaid’s Tale. I am starting with The Handmaid’s Tale. I am obsessed with the show. I want to see if they are going to change anything from the book, or etc. I do want to own a copy of the book eventually to add to my collection eventually.
The meeting was okay, and I felt like it went better than my first scheduling meeting. Now I had a few e-mails to send and some questions that need answered from a few people before I can begin building the schedule. I am hoping to start building it soon. I am ready to get started on it and get it out of the way.
After work, I was tired, but not that tired and worn out, as I thought I would be the storm is approaching I know. When we got home, I made dinner and my mother-in-law stopped by to drop off a bag of frozen chicken wings for us, and some vitamins for Drew. She updated us on Grandma and we talked about Kelly’s wedding on Saturday. Drew and I didn’t realize it was at 4pm. Drew said, “Bub, if we plan this right we can still go to the pool.” I said, “that is awesome.” His mom said, “yea, there isn’t time in between it is not a Catholic wedding.” Drew said, “Oh thank God, it won’t take forever then.” I said, “ours, didn’t take forever. We didn’t have Eucharist, because someone wasn’t Catholic.” We both laughed, but his mom sure didn’t. His mom is an evangelical and they don’t really care for the Catholic faith, and are so much more judgmental. I just laugh. It used to offend me, now I love that I get my digs in and it makes me laugh. After she left, we ate dinner, cleaned up, and watched Smallville until it was bed time.

Workshop & Happy Hour

This morning I had a workshop that I had to go to. It was called Taming the E-mail Beast. I am three workshops away from the admin professionals certificate. I cannot wait to be done! I want to go for the Diversity and Inclusion one next, most of my workshops should roll over for that one.
When I arrived at the workshop, the woman who was hosting it Diane we had chatted a few times about my career and professional development. It was good to see her again. She started off the workshop with a PowerPoint slide, and she had the power point slides printed out for us on paper. I find these workshops so informative.
While I was waiting for the workshop to begin, I noticed that there was a job listed on PittSource. I wanted to apply for. It was an event coordinator position.  I have been trying to get involved in events at Pitt for so long now. I texted Phyllis and asked her if I could meet her after the workshop. I had a question for her. She asked if it was good or bad? I laughed a little inside. I texted it’s good. She said, Ok.
The second half of the work shop was hosted by one of Drew’s co-workers. He was going to talk to us about some of the features in Microsoft Outlook. I didn’t feel I needed to hear that part, so I quietly stood up and left. I figured if they would ask I would say, that I had a call that i needed to make.
When I arrived back at Posvar, I went to Phyllis’ office and we talked about the position. She said, “well all you can do is apply for it. I don’t want to see you go. I am not done yet.” I laughed. I agreed, part of me feels like I shouldn’t go, and I should stay. I need to learn so much still in this position. She encouraged me to talk to Linda about it.
When I arrived back to my office, Nancy said, I know you have your meeting with Linda today, but just let it go easy, and let her talk. She is in a mood today. I said, “Oh okay.” I decided to tell Nancy about the position. She immediately said, You know you can’t apply for anything until at least a year right?” I said, “yea, I know, but I can always put the date that I am available to start, is after my one year.” She asked, “You really want to do events?” I said, “I don’t know.” She said, “well I wouldn’t talk to Linda about it today. Wait until you get a second interview.” I smiled and sort of agreed.
That afternoon, I had my one-on-one with Linda. I created a small agenda and prepared myself for my meeting.  When it was time, I walked back to her office. She invited me, and I took a seat. We talked about my goals and things that I am working on. She thinks I am doing a good job and said, “It sounds like you know what you are talking about.” She said, “Anything else?” I said, “Yes, well sort of.” She laughed a little. I said, “Well there is this position I want to apply for on PittSource. It is an event coordinator position.” She said, “I think you would be great at that. What department is this for?” I said, “University Library System.” She said, “I don’t know anyone over there, but I won’t hold you back  you know that.” I said, “Thank you. my 1 year is coming up and I know I can’t apply for anything until after….” She said, “if they want you, we can waive that for you.” I said, “Oh wow, thank you” I started to get a little emotional. I thought what am I doing leaving here? They love me and they will work with me, probably more than the library, but I have to try. I feel that I need to try. I thanked her for her time, and left her office.
After the meeting, I talked to Nancy, and told her what she said. She was glad that it went well. I was glad it went well too. I did some tasks, then it was time to get ready to go to the happy hour with my music friends.
When I arrived at UClub, AJ the birthday boy was there, along with the chair I sat down on the couch with them and chatted for a bit. Then Paula and Stephanie showed up, as well as Susan and her husband. We went up to the roof top and got a table. We ordered our drinks, and then my husband arrived. Lastly, Phil and Gaea arrived. The gang was all there. I only had one drink.
After awhile, we were all sitting around when all of the sudden Chancellor Gallagher approached our table. He got a picture with AJ. Then Drew and I got a picture with him. Drew was starstruck. It was so cute. I have my picture already with him, but I am glad I got another. This one the cathedral is in the background it looks so good.

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After the chancellor left our table, we chatted some more, but it just didn’t feel the same with these people anymore. I have been gone from the Music Department for awhile, and it felt like I just have moved on. Paula told me there is a retirement party for Doretta on Thursday and asked, if I wanted to come? I said, “oh for sure! I would love to!” Shortly after we got up to leave. I still have to figure out what I am making for dinner, or what we are going to do for dinner.

Dog Sitting

This morning, I got up a little earlier than usual. I needed to get my car packed up. I got dressed, and packed up my car. What good is going over to your parents, if you can’t take your dirty laundry? I bagged up my dirty clothes in a garbage bag, and then packed up my duffle bag and my dress for Maci’s party on Saturday.

When we left the house, I met Drew at the bus stop and we drove to Crafton in my car, so we could take the bus together. Then, he would take the Moon bus home, and I would take the Crafton bus back to my parent’s. We had this all coordinated. When we arrived in Crafton, it was close to 7am. We missed the 28X as I was parking the car. He was like, “Oh man.”  I said, “We will be okay. We can get another bus and still be on time.” I don’t like the 28X anyway, even though it takes right to Oakland.

When we got on the Crafton bus, it was packed. The ride to downtown went pretty quick. I had my purse, umbrella, and two library books that I planned to return today at lunch. I was struggling to hold everything on my lap, as the bus was moving. This will be a lot easier on the way home.

When we arrived down town we got off the bus and walked to the bus stop to pick up a 61 or a 71. A 71 came by first, so we hopped onto that bus. When we arrived in Oakland, I got off at the stop where the Starbucks is on Fifth. I kissed Drew goodbye, and he went to his office in the cathedral. I needed coffee.

After I left Starbucks with a hot caramel macchiato in my hand, I was on my way to my office. I was running a little late, but I didn’t care. No one was going to know. I am on time most days and stay later than I have to on most days, and some times do not even take a full lunch hour, so it all comes out in the wash.

When I arrived to my office, I got started. There isn’t too much going on today. When Nancy came in we touched base regarding the drama in her friend’s circle. Wynn came down a little later in the morning, and asked me if I wanted to go the Greek Festival with them today. I was touched. I love when they include me. I said, I would love to. They take cards so I wouldn’t have to get cash. I haven’t been to the Greek festival yet. Drew said he went last year and it was so good. He wants me to bring him back a Gyro. I forgot a Gyro was Greek, that is what I will have. I don’t really know about anything else on the menu. I am weird about food.

When we arrived to the Greek Festival the line for the Gryos and hot food was up the sidewalk, past the church. I stood in line. Nancy, Wynn, and Lindsay went inside to get inline for food. I wanted a gyro and so did Drew, so I was determined to wait in line. There were a couple guys in line behind me, who were facilities people at Pitt. They were talking usual guy talk. I surfed my phone, texted Drew, and pretty soon I was next in line. It didn’t take too long. I got a freshly squeezed lemonade too. I can’t tell you the last time I had lemonade. I ordered two gyros and an order of Greek fries to go. My total was $28. I walked inside to meet up with the girls, and they were at a table, and had already finished eating. I sat down and opened one of the gyros and started to eat. They all thought I was crazy for waiting in the line.

On our way back from the festival, I stopped at the cathedral and dropped off the other gyro and the fries for Drew. The ladies made fun of me for bringing him his lunch. One of the women has been married twice and the other married for a few years with a daughter.  I didn’t care. Drew and I are newly married and I don’t do this all the time for him, and besides we were close any way to the cathedral.

When I left work it was 3:30pm, I stopped at the library and returned my two books. I browsed the shelves for a couple books to read this week and next. I wanted to read tonight at my parents. I picked up two historical fiction books. One about Charles Dickens, the other about Lord Byron’s illegitimate child. What I wanted was Hemingway’s movable feast about his time in Paris in the 1920s, but I couldn’t find it. I didn’t even think to ask my old professor if I could borrow his copy.

When I met up with Drew around 4:30pm, we took the bus out of Oakland together. He seemed moody and grumpy from the day. I was kind of glad I was going to my parents and spending the evening by myself with the dogs. I think with his attitude and how he is annoyed by the dogs, we would have wound up in an argument. Also, my period is 3 days late! I took a test yesterday morning and it said Negative and it was a definitive negative. I knew I wasn’t pregnant, but still this is annoying, just start already!

When we arrived down town, we kissed goodbye the G3 to take him to Moon was quick to arrive. Typically, I am the first one to get on the bus, when I have to go to Crafton. Shortly after his bus took off, a G2 arrived to take me to crafton. On the way home, I listened to music and stared out the window.

When I arrived in Crafton, I got off the bus and went to my car. I drove to Dollar General to get more pads. I didn’t want to be out of them. I was close to it from wearing a pad every day waiting for this period to arrive! After I left Dollar General, I went to Subway and got a foot long subway club on wheat with everything on it, but olives and jalapenos.

When I arrived to my parents, I set my subway bag and drink on the table outside and opened my parents’ back door. There were the dogs at the door. They ran outside on the porch to greet me. It was like unleash the hounds! I bent down to give them kisses and loves. I bet they are so confused. I let them run around in the grass and go to the bathroom, then I carried my food in and set it on the table. I got their food ready, and then set their dishes down. Louie loves to eat. Paris takes her time.

After dinner, I brought in my stuff, and took my dirty laundry downstairs. I put a load in, and then got a shower. After my shower, I ate half of my subway sandwich, then snuggled the dogs. I watched most of The Rage: Carrie 2, and Revolutionary Road.

One thing about the Rage, is that it was set in the 2000s. The turn of the millennium. I noticed all the fashion statements, and stereotypes from that time period. It is weird to think it was that long ago. I had existential moment.

Before I went to bed around 10pm, I let the dogs out one more time. Louie went, but Paris did not, then I locked up the house and went to bed.

Friday

Work today has been slow and steady. I have been doing a few requests here and there. I  am not really all that busy today. I do have a project I could start.  No one really noticed my hair, but they did say it definitely looks brighter. They didn’t realize I cut it short.
At lunch, I ate with Kim and Nancy they had the “O” hot dogs and fries. I ate my salad and nibbled on their fries. Now, I am typing up this post. I am hoping this day goes by fast. I am supposed to hang out with Anthony when he gets out of work tonight. We are going to go to 5801, and then to the Blue Moon. We will see where the night takes us. I am ready to go out!
When I got home, I was feeling tired and not sure if I really even wanted to go out.  A storm was on it’s way, and I was ready to just stay in for the night, but I didn’t want to cancel. I wasn’t quite sure where the night was going to take us.

After we ate dinner, I went upstairs and got a shower, and got ready to go out. I was feeling bloated and not sure what I wanted to wear. I decided on a floral jumper with my wedge sandals (they need fixed, but I figured they would do for the night)
Anthony texted me when he got home, so I packed up my make up, grabbed  a Red Bull out of the fridge, kissed Andrew goodbye, and got in my car. Andrew was going out with Zach to see Avengers: Infinity War for a second time. I drove to Anthony’s and when I arrived, I called Ray over Facebook messenger, so he could buzz me in.
When I walked into Anthony’s Ray was there to greet me at the dog with a hug. I was glad that he was coming with us to go out. We took some selfies, and listened to music before we headed out around 9:30pm. When we finally arrived at 5801, parking was an issue. We found a spot, and it was on the street. Someone must have just left. We parked, and I buckled up my shoe, and we walked inside. It was sort of dead.
We made our way to the outside bar. They had a nice set up. All the guy were so handsome, they all seemed the same type. I told the bartender to make me something sweet. The only thing they had on special was 1.50 craft beers. I told Anthony and he said, “What the hell is a craft beer?” I laughed. “We are not in Kansas anymore.” When the bartender set my drink down in front of him, It was a pretty shade of blue with a lemon and a cherry in it. I thought it looked really pretty. Anthony had a double vodka and cranberry. Ray had a Budlight and a shot.
We went back inside, and after a few sips of my drink the alcohol was sitting in my throat and it was actually really nasty. I set my drink on the bar top, and told Anthony that I was sorry, but I couldn’t drink this. He understood. I told the bartender about the drink, and Anthony ordered another double vodka and cran. I was willing to buy Anthony’s drink, since mine was terrible. The bartender didn’t charge me for his drink, or my sprite. I was happy about that.
We made our way downstairs, and stood by the bar. Anthony went to go close his tab. I talked to Ray. I said, “I can’t believe how dead this place is. He said, “Yeah, it only caters to a certain kind of gay community.” I said, “Oh, really?” He said, “Yeah, this is a twinkie and daddy bar.” I said, “Oh, I didn’t know, but I could kind of tell by looking around.” He said, “Yea for instance, the Blue Moon caters to hipsters, and bears (bigger gay men), and outcasts.” I nodded my head. If I would have known this was going to be dead, then I wouldn’t have suggested it, I felt bad.
After we left 5801, I said “never again.” They all laughed. I drove us to the Blue Moon. Anthony was already feeling all the alcohol and was saying some really funny things. It was hard to concentrate on the road, I was laughing so hard. When we arrived at the Blue Moon, I parked in the parking lot, and Anthony helped me buckle my shoe. The Blue Moon was packed, wall-to-wall with people. I couldn’t believe it. It was karaoke night. I wasn’t sure if I was really feeling this place either. It was just an off night.
At one point, two straight girls were at the microphone singing, “In the Air Tonight” the karaoke announcer said, “Are all the straight bars closed tonight? Oh my God!” It was hilarious. We all laughed. Anthony had another 2 double vodkas and cranberry. Ray had PBR. I stuck to water. My mind was just somewhere else tonight.
At around 12:30am, we left the bar and decided to call it a night. Anthony saw someone that he used to hook up with, and I shattered my phone screen. The night just had to end. Before we left, Anthony peed behind the dumpster. When he got back in the car, he said, “A stranger complimented my penis.” We all laughed. Ray asked, “Why he didn’t get his number?” He said, “Because Ray, that is not how our love story should start out. What am I going to tell our children?” I drove off towards Moon township. I dropped Ray off first as his apartment, then I dropped Anthony off. We were going to have to try this again, another time.
When I got home, Drew was still awake. He greeted me at the door, I kissed him, and walked inside. I took my shoes off, and we went upstairs.I showed him my phone and how it was shattered. I changed into some comfy clothes. I told him how it was just an off night. I didn’t have fun at all. I did laugh a lot though. He was sorry that I didn’t have a good night, but was happy that I was home safe.

Staff Apperciation Picnic & Barre

At 12pm today, Nancy, Wynn, Georgia, Nicolette, Brian, and myself all went to the Staff Appreciation picnic. Pitt closes down Bigelow and the picnic is in the street; food tents,  t-shirt giveaway table, Popcorn, nacho, and ice cream stand, character drawings, etc. Roc the Pitt panther was walking around. I got a selfie with him and the chancellor. The chancellor remembered who I was from the Jazz Seminar and Concert. I thanked him for the picnic and he said, thank you for all you do.  I had to head back to the office around 1:30pm for a schedulers meeting. We were going to get this fall schedule settled once and for all. I had no desire to do anything after the picnic

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After work today, I got home and got ready to go to barre class. When I arrived at the gym, I got 5 mins of cardio in. I increased the speed and started to run for the first time since the start of grad school.

Typically, I walk first before I run, and this time I ran. I didn’t care, blasted the metal music in my ears and away I went.
After 5 mins was up, I cleaned off the machine and went to class. I grabbed a chair, a mat, and two pound weights. I was glad we weren’t using stretchy bands today. I can never work with those right. When I saw the instructor, I wanted to ask her what happened on Sunday, when she didn’t show up at the studio, but I figured I would wait until after class.

Barre was intense, we did some ab work, and I was struggling a bit. I was still so bloated, so that didn’t help and I feel like I have no abs, or strength in my stomach. I need to get that under control. I am 5’3″ and 160 pounds. No shame with my height and weight I just need to be healthier. I have no desire to be 110lbs and a size 2 again, but I do what I can, and I eat in moderation and when I do I try to eat the right thing,s  but that time of the month for me is so real and hard sometimes.

After Barre, I cleaned off my mat and put away the chair, and weights. I asked the instructor about Sunday and she said,  I am so sorry you went all the way out there. She said, the girls who are regulars weren’t going to be there, because one was on vacation and some where not able to attend, so I just went to a client’s house and trained her instead. I feel bad.” I said, “Don’t worry about it, but I should I have texted you. I went to breakfast with my parents.” she laughed and apologized again. I said, “But you will be there this Sunday?” she said, “Yes, I will be.” I said, “okay, I will see you then.” I didn’t care really. She should have texted me, and I should have texted her. It’s cool.

After the gym, I went home and got a shower. I turned on the Handmaid’s Tale. New episodes air on Wednesdays. I am addicted to this show. She got caught trying to escape on a puddle jumper. Yes! I knew she was going to get caught. I was rooting for her to make it, but this is the handmaid’s tale. She is a handmaiden. I love it!

Porch

This afternoon, I went to lunch with Cindy. She is new to the division. My mentor left to take another position in another department, so now Linda is mentor. The person replacing my mentor is Cindy. She is so down to earth, nice, and will really fit in here. Brian, Cindy, Wynn, and myself walked to the Porch together.
When we arrived, we ordered our food, and Wynn paid for our lunch. She will probably get reimbursed as an expense. I still thought that was nice of her to do. We sat a table, and got to know Cindy. She is so funny and easy going. I am excited for her. We all talked about what it’s like in our departments. When food arrived, Wynn and I split a Marguerite pizza. I was still a little hungry after, but I would be okay.
After lunch, we walked back over to Posvar. Cindy and I talked about England and France. She said, that she vacationed over there recently, and was excited for me. When I got back to my office, the day went by so slow. I was ready to go home. I wasn’t quite feeling myself. I am a little bloated too. I know it’s hormones and period related, but it’s annoying.
On the way home, I was kind of cranky. I don’t know why I just was. Drew was a little cranky too. He was going to go to the gym, but decided to stay home with me. Tomorrow is another day.