Kate Spade and Too Many Others

This is probably the most serious blog post I will ever do, or have ever done. It is a call to mental health. Today, Kate Spade was found dead by apparent suicide. She hung her self from a scarf, that was tied to her doorknob. For those of you, who do not know who Kate Spade was, she was a fashion designer and husband to Andy Spade, who co-founded the Kate Spade brand.

Kate Spade’s collection is known for bold colors, flirty, and classy prints and designs. I own quite of few things that are Kate Spade. She was my favorite designer. I was saddened by the news of her death. I immediately turned to the internet and found out some interesting information. Kate Spade New York issued a statement on CNN.com, “Although Kate has not been affiliated with the brand for more than a decade, she and her husband and creative partner, Andy, were the founders of our beloved brand.” I was shocked by this. I hadn’t realized that she was involved anymore with her brand anymore. I do remember reading something somewhere that Coach bought her out. All the articles have read things like she suffered with business decisions, her marriage was a mess; he wanted a divorce and she didn’t etc. Whatever the reason, it is not worth it to end one’s life.

Kate Spade New York issued this statement:

Please if you are struggling, and you need to speak to someone, it is never too late to seek help. No one is ever too far gone.

If you are having thoughts of suicide, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 (TALK) or go to SpeakingOfSuicide.com/resources for a list of additional resources.]

Christmas Break

I had a really good winter break. However, there were times where I was so excited to go back to work. I just like to be busy, and have a routine. I do better when I know where I am expected to go and what I am expected to. Most of the time, when I was home, and let’s say Andrew was at the gym. I went for a little, but when I came home, I took down all of the Christmas decorations and packed them away. I was over it. I am in a hurry to put it up and in a hurry to take it down. I was also PMSing that day, but still.
When Andrew came home, I had the tree in a box by the door for him to take down to the garage. Our stockings, the decorations, all of it was packed up in bins and put by the door to go to the garage. I was so over it. Drew walked in the house and said, “Wow Bub you were busy.” I said, that I felt like I really needed a project. He said, “it definitely looks like it.” The house was clean, the carpet was vacuumed. I know he said he would help, but I wanted to get it done.
Sometimes having all that time off reminded me of being unemployed, and having those feelings of silly boredom and uncertainty. I am so glad I have a job to go back to. Once I get back I just have to focus on shining. My provisional is up on January 17th. I know what I needed to do. I am just ready to do it.
Over break, we went to the movie theater to see Star Wars. It was cute, but man was it long. It was like 2-3 hours long. I am short, so those movie theater seats aren’t all that comfortable for me. The theater was packed. It made Andrew happy to go see it, so I am glad we got to go together.
Also, we spent some of my Christmas bonus. I bought some new makeup from Chanel. I may go back for the moisturizer soon. I still have a nice chunk of money left over.  I bought a Kate Spade laptop sleeve for my MacBook Pro. It is rose gold and has glitter on it. I have an obsession with Kate Spade.
Another noteworthy thing that happened is my period started on time, which was amazing. I love it when it starts on time, but it has been accompanied by low back pains, and it is really concerning me. It felt like a tightly balled up feeling in my lower back. I never had lower back pain before, even when it came to a period. Only the last couple of cycles.
So most of the Friday before New Years, I was in some sort of pain, but I still carried on with our plans to go to the mall, then to dinner with my parents at TGI Friday’s. I soldiered on. After we left the restaurant, we went to Walmart, then home for the evening.

Gym & Birthday Dinner

At noon, we went to the gym and got a good work out in, after my cardio, I did some weights with Drew, then I went home and showered. I got ready to go to my parents. When Drew got home, he got a shower, got dressed, then we were out the door to my parents. I was so happy to see my dogs. I put a little Halloween tutu on Paris. She didn’t like it too much.

When we arrived at my parents it was 3:30pm. I snuggled my pups and kissed them. I missed them when I am not there. Drew and I started on the beer, then his parents arrived shortly after we did. My mom put some snacks out, so of course, I filled up on those before dinner. She made my favorite dinner ever, which is Meatball Stroganoff. She also made a pork tenderloin. It was so good.

After dinner, we sang happy birthday and I opened my gifts. The first ones I opened were Anniversary. We got another 5-piece setting to my Kate Spade wedding china pattern from his parents, then my mom and dad gave us money. I thought that was so nice of them.

When I opened my birthday gifts, I got 3 Alex and Ani bracelets from my mother-in-law and father-in-law, as well as another 5-piece setting to my Kate Spade wedding china pattern. My parents got me the iwatch 3. I love it! I was so surprised. They told me, that they weren’t sure if it was going to come in, in time, or not.

So earlier that day, my dad had to go out to the Apple Store in South Hills and get it. They only had one left. They canceled the order with Best Buy since they got this one instead. I was so happy it was there. It is so pretty I can’t stop looking at it! It was so easy to set up too.
Shortly after cake and dinner, it finally set it in a little bit. On Tuesday, I am going to be 30! It is so crazy to me. Around 8pm, we got ready to leave. His parents were going to leave too. My mom packed up the leftover dinner and gave it to us to take home. I was glad that we were able to do this, this weekend.

Dermatologist & A Day with Mom

This morning, I had to go to the dermatologist, and get some blemishes checked out. It turns out that I was 17 minutes late. I thought my appointment was at 8:30am. It was at 8am. Whoops! I did go to Starbucks before, and they took a little longer with my drink. Today was going to be a long day.

Once I got to the dermatologist, they were able to take me in right away. Nick, the dermatologist, said they can’t biopsy my blemish, because it is not raised or cancerous, they suggested a cosmetic dermatologist, but it won’t be covered under insurance, so he is going to prescribe me this chemical peel stuff, Retin-a cream. It could make it go away after a few weeks, and will help me down the road with preventing fine lines and wrinkles.

Also, I have little bumps on my legs, they are keto something, and fair skinned women get them more frequently over the years, hardly noticeable, but they are there. There is no cure, yet, but a lotion will help minimize the appearance smooth them, and make them not so red, so far 29 year old skin sucks!

When I left the dermatologist, I went home and Drew put some last minute things in his suitcase, showered, and then we left for the airport. I was starting to get so sad. 😦 I was going to miss him so much. When we arrived to the airport, he parked his car at the curbside, checked in, and we kissed. I turned to leave. He said, “wait bub.” I turned around and he took me in his arms, and kissed me over and over again. He told me he loved me. It was so hot. I am going to miss him like crazy.

When I finally let him go, and got back in the car, I drove off and called my mom. I was going to meet her at Eat n Park. When I arrived at the Eat n Park, I got a booth and ordered a latte and waited for my mom to arrive. We had a light breakfast, and it was nice to see her.

After breakfast, we went shopping she bought me coach flats, since mine have a hole in them, and I had to throw them away. Then we went to kohl’s, she bought me a work top, and a top to wear to the Tom Petty concert. this woman is amazing!

After we went shopping, we went back to the house, and I got to see my dogs. My dad made dinner for us around 4pm. I dosed off during Dr. Phil, but I was pretty hungry. I needed to get back home and do some laundry. I was ready to go back to my house, even if it was going to be empty. Right now, I am watching the Pens game, texting Drew off and on and doing laundry. I am not sure when I will go to sleep. I am not looking forward to sleeping by myself tonight.