Spring Semester

I am starting my second week of the Spring semester. Last week I couldn’t seem to find the grove. I am still working on trying to find the grove. I am reminded by a phrase that I have heard before from an old friend when it comes to finding your routine, just keep moving, don’t think just do. I haven’t tried to stop and and think. I just keep going without thinking about it. My schedule is as follows:
French class on Monday Wednesday and Friday during my lunch hour at 11am-11:50am. I love learning French. The instructor speaks in English for a little before class. I say, Bonjour to him in the hallways before class. He seems nice. At first I was surprised by how much I could understand. I understood bits and pieces when we were in Paris. Sometimes I raise my hand and participate. Sometimes I don’t.

Tuesday after work I have Student Development Theory with Max. I have had Max as a professor before for class, two semesters ago. He is a good professor. The class seems like a lot of work for someone, who is part time in the program like me. I am wondering how I am going to be able to fit all this in with work and my internship, but it will work out. I have to try to do the best I can. I can’t quit now.

Thursday after work I have Legal Aspects of Higher Education. I feel pretty good about this class. My professor is interesting and nice. She goes over a lot of detail, which is good. She asked us on the first day, if we ever read any legal cases before. I told her that I did last semester for a paper I wrote on the Grove City vs. Bell case. I am excited about that class. I think it will be interesting. This is the only elective I could take where my schedule would be on opposite days. It is too hard for me to take classes on back-to-back.

Presently, I am sitting the common area of the cathedral, aka Hogwarts and writing this post. I should be reading. I will get to that in a minute. I need a breather from school work. I wrote all weekend (Saturday and Sunday.) Today, I turned in my essay and my summaries for Max. I don’t have any summaries do next Monday, which is nice just have to read. I will have summaries the week after next and a bibliography due. I need to meet with my group to decide on a student population. I really want to work with athletes. We will see how that goes.

One more entry about Friday night and I promise I will start reading.

Paper Writing

Paper Writing

After pumpkin picking, and shopping around. We went home and I sat down to write my second paper for class. We had to pick a policy and or a court case and describe the importance in relation to Higher Education, as well as who was excluded, and who did the policy help or hinder. I chose to write about the Grove City vs. Bell case.

I am not one for reading legal jargon. It is pretty dry stuff. I think I got the gist of the case. Writing always came easy to me, once I sit down and start it, but it’s just getting to the point where I am sitting down and actually writing it.

So I poured myself a glass of wine and I think it worked. I was able to finish the paper by the end of the weekend!

Remote Participation

Today, Drew worked from home and I took it easy. I hung out and watched television. I iced my foot. My parents came by and brought us lunch from Eat n Park and told us about their trip. They felt bad for me. It was nice to see them.

While I was laid up, I finished my homework for Leadership class. I was going to participate remotely with my group tonight and I wanted to be prepared. I e-mailed my instructor and my group members and let them know about my ankle. They all wished me well and planned to face-time me tonight during class.

In the evening, Drew went to class and I stayed home. I heated up some dinner and waited for my group to face time me. Before my group called, my father-in-law came by with some sausages, peppers, and onions in red sauce. He put it in the fridge along with some chicken salad and coleslaw. We are so spoiled.

When he left, my group called me and we talked about our paper and created a framework for our leadership model based on the author’s we read. We all had a plan to take ownership of a section by Thursday, as well as provide some quotes for various sections that we did not take ownership to. I immediately chose the section I wanted and can’t wait to start crafting the paper.

After the call, I was so annoyed. I don’t particularly care for my group, but it is what it is. I got up and got ready to go to bed. I was so tired and I felt like tomorrow was going to be a long day at work.

Discouraged

In class today, our professor went over our papers. She said I have been getting a lot of e-mails about the paper. Let’s go over the difference between a topic and an idea. For example, Student Retention is too broad it is an idea. A topic would be Student Retention among minorities or some racial demographic. I looked over at my friend Julia, who is also in my class and I mouth. “Shit.” I had my paper done and it was on the overall aspect of student retention.
This morning, my tutor and I reviewed my paper and checked it for punctuation, so now I have to research again? I should have known better. At one point during the class,  we were working in our groups and discussing the readings. I turned to the professor and asked if I could speak with her during the break? She said, “yeah of course. You can walk with me to get a snack.” I said, “alright.”
When break time arrived, I walked with her down the hall to the faculty break room. I told her about my situation. I said, I finished my paper over the weekend and I have been back and forth with my tutor via text.  I wrote my paper on Student Retention, but I didn’t narrow it down. She said, “yea, you need to narrow it down.” At this point, we walked into the break room and she was getting her fat bombs out of the freezer (she is keto too). I said, okay, but here is where I am at, I spent all weekend writing my paper. I researched last weekend and wrote it this weekend. I have an internship in the evening on Thursday-Saturday and I work full-time I don’t really have the time to research again and get it to proofread.” she nodded her head. I said, “so do you think that I would be good to write about First-Generation college student retention or  retention among minorities?” She said, “I think you could find a lot out there on First-Generation college student retention. I want to know when we started looking at First-Generation student retention, not just student retention.”  I said, “Okay, I will do what I can with the time that I have.”  We walked back into the classroom, and I said, “I just wish you would have gone over that last week.” We laughed a bit and she said, “Sorry girl! I was just getting so many questions about it.” I smiled and thanked her for her time and took my seat.
The rest of the class I was annoyed and discouraged. It is so important that I do well on this first paper. At the end of class, she made an announcement, that we could do a re-write if we wanted. I thought to myself again, something that could have been mentioned earlier. Maybe it wouldn’t have made a difference in my anxiety, but I would be better prepared then I am now.
When I met up with Drew after class, I was so annoyed. I asked him how the class was, and he said that it went well. I told him about the situation with my paper and he felt bad for me. I told him I am not going to have the time to re-research everything again. I am going to weave it through my paper, as I can. I just need to find a couple of good sources about first-generation college students.  On the way home, I was feeling sick. I needed to take a sick day tomorrow. I was not in a good state of mind. I could rest and research, the two Rs.

Writing

This morning I woke up and had some coffee and breakfast with Drew, then it was back to work. I finished my paper and got a shower. I felt so raunchy. Drew was going to leave around 2:30pm that day to head back to our house, and I think he wanted to go to the gym too. I felt like I was ready for the tutor to make her corrections and be able to turn it in on Monday, October 1st. I just won’t have time over the weekend to do anymore. When Drew left, I snuggled with the dogs and got ready for work the next day.

Conflict in Group Work

Some of my friends from last semester are in my class this semester. The couple girls that I know meet up in the grad lab before class. We sit around and gossip, girl talk, or talk about our classes. They asked me about my group. One of the members of my group wasn’t so receptive to group work from Day 1. I am not sure if I explained the bias that I felt when I first met her. Well I said, it is going, we haven’t decided on a leader yet, have you? They both said, Yeah we have a leader.” These girls I think have one more semester and they are done and will have their Master’s. They are on top of things, and I like to think I am as well. I hate leaving things to chance, and not having a plan, outline, or anything it makes me crazy uncomfortable.

When I walked into class, I took a seat at my table. I was the first one there in my group. I  was super uncomfortable. Angela was the first to walk in and take a seat. I asked her if we could add finding a leader to our agenda today at the meeting after class? She said, wow that is a little soon don’t you think? We haven’t even met yet. I said, “I have friends in two other groups who have leaders, and a plan of attack. We don’t have any of that.” I set up a doodle poll and only 3 people responded. We have 6 in our group. This is just terrible.  Well, Angela said, “Okay, we will add it to the agenda.” She was not receptive and did not want to get a start on this at all, and was not proactive.

When class got underway, all my 6 members of my group were in attendance. My professor’s TA hosted the class. She broke us up into break out groups based on MBTI results. Okay, well I am an extrovert, and among the extroverts was Angela and Julie. Julie is in my group and she doesn’t do ANYTHING. She lets other people take the initiative and she bites off what she wants out of it. She doesn’t interject her opinion in our groups. She leaves it for everyone else. She doesn’t take the initiative to be a spokesperson and write things down. She hasn’t researched anything. I was so annoyed by her.

After class, we met as a team and we were talking about leaders and a plan of attack for this assignment. My group didn’t understand how we could go about this. I got up and asked Sarah (TA) if she would verify a few things on the assignment. I said, “How should we go about splitting up the work?” She said, “Well I would pick 4 themes and analyze them with the leader that you choose.” Okay easy enough right guys? I said, “Well I printed out some articles on Bono and Justin Trudeau and highlighted some key points that related to our articles and etc.” They were all impressed that I did that. They were like, “Wow look at you.” I thought uhh it’s grad school what did you expect? I wouldn’t come prepared?

We couldn’t reach a decision about a leader. They talked about different leaders now we are back to the drawing board what about taking a look at the things I printed out? They suggested doing Mary Robinson, or Ruth Bater-Ginsberg? We have to do serious people, not anything fun like a musician or an artist. We were to keep reading our individual books. Julie asked when was the book due? I said, “It’s in your syllabus, September 26th.” She said, “Oh wow.” I said, “yup.” I thought is she for real? Then I said, “This paper is due October 10th. I have another paper due October 1st, so I am really not trying to waste much time.” They all looked at me like I was insane. This is not my first semester or my first rodeo. I was so anxiety ridden.

On the way home, I sent a very intense e-mail. I guess it was intense, but I was honest about how I felt. I told him wow I feel like we are behind and we need to have a leader by Friday? I just let them have it. I felt like I was the only one that is proactive. etc. Well maybe I should have slept on it…the storm was about to touchdown.

Grad Class

This morning, I was so tired the rain and this dreary weather was wiping me out. I did not want to go to work today, or go to class tonight. For breakfast, I had coffee with just a little bit of creamer, two hard boiled eggs with guacamole. It was good. The guacamole is definitely a bit hotter, than I like, but it was good. Thankfully, I can have coffee and cream. I don’t know if I would be able to do this if I had black coffee. Image may contain: coffee cup and food For lunch, I had my salad like I always do, but I added some peppers, a whole avocado, and some tuna. I also had some spaghetti squash with peppers heated up (could have used some butter). It as good overall.Image may contain: food

After work, I went up to class and I ate my cookie dough Paleo bar.  Also, I drank so much water like 3 yetis full of water. I feel good today. I don’t miss sugar. I don’t miss Starbucks. It feels like I am doing something good for my body.
In class, I was talking to some people in my group about keto before class started. My professor looked up at me, and she said, “I have been doing it for years.” I said, “really?we are going to go have to talk.” She said, “Definitely! I recommend these chocolate and peanut butter fat bombs.” I was glad to hear her advice.

After we discussed Takai, we had a break. We took 15 mins and then went to the bathroom, or stepped outside the classroom to make a phone call etc. I talked to my professor about the keto diet. She was open to sharing recipes and tips. She told me to follow her Instagram for recipes and fitness pointers. I was glad to make that connection. I noticed we vibed in class after that conversation.

After class, I met up with Drew and we walked to the car. We talked about school, keto, work, and our day. I couldn’t wait to get home. Once we got home, I had two pieces of string cheese and then I was done eating for the day.  I feel like I had good day so far of keto day 1. Tomorrow is day 2.