Spring Semester

I am starting my second week of the Spring semester. Last week I couldn’t seem to find the grove. I am still working on trying to find the grove. I am reminded by a phrase that I have heard before from an old friend when it comes to finding your routine, just keep moving, don’t think just do. I haven’t tried to stop and and think. I just keep going without thinking about it. My schedule is as follows:
French class on Monday Wednesday and Friday during my lunch hour at 11am-11:50am. I love learning French. The instructor speaks in English for a little before class. I say, Bonjour to him in the hallways before class. He seems nice. At first I was surprised by how much I could understand. I understood bits and pieces when we were in Paris. Sometimes I raise my hand and participate. Sometimes I don’t.

Tuesday after work I have Student Development Theory with Max. I have had Max as a professor before for class, two semesters ago. He is a good professor. The class seems like a lot of work for someone, who is part time in the program like me. I am wondering how I am going to be able to fit all this in with work and my internship, but it will work out. I have to try to do the best I can. I can’t quit now.

Thursday after work I have Legal Aspects of Higher Education. I feel pretty good about this class. My professor is interesting and nice. She goes over a lot of detail, which is good. She asked us on the first day, if we ever read any legal cases before. I told her that I did last semester for a paper I wrote on the Grove City vs. Bell case. I am excited about that class. I think it will be interesting. This is the only elective I could take where my schedule would be on opposite days. It is too hard for me to take classes on back-to-back.

Presently, I am sitting the common area of the cathedral, aka Hogwarts and writing this post. I should be reading. I will get to that in a minute. I need a breather from school work. I wrote all weekend (Saturday and Sunday.) Today, I turned in my essay and my summaries for Max. I don’t have any summaries do next Monday, which is nice just have to read. I will have summaries the week after next and a bibliography due. I need to meet with my group to decide on a student population. I really want to work with athletes. We will see how that goes.

One more entry about Friday night and I promise I will start reading.

Advising Apointment

Advising Apointment

I am presently sitting in the coffee shop of the U Club. I am prepping for my advising appointment. I have never been in this coffee shop before, but it is cute. It is called Brioche Doree. They have a little Eiffel Tower on the top of the pastry counter. It’s a cute quaint little coffee shop. It is not a cafe in Paris though. 😦 I am sipping a caramel latte waiting for my advisor to show. Our appointment is at 9am. She and I met before at orientation and I see her all the time in the building where my office is, but I am nervous for some reason.

There is so much going on at work and we are prepping for a new academic year. I am having trouble crossing tasks off my list, and now I am a prepping to start back to school on the fall. thus will be the second semester of my first year in Graduate School. I know that there is a lot of work ahead of me, but I am just trying to embrace it and love each moment of it. 2 more weeks and I will be back in the classroom again. Working full time, and attending graduate school part time. The reward will be sweet.

Sunday

This morning I got up at 8:30am, got showered, and ready to go to Barre class at my instructor’s dance studio in Ambridge. We were to be there at 9:30am. When I arrived it was 9:15am, I sat in the car out front of the studio. 9:15am turned into 9:45am, and still, she wasn’t there. I just decided to head back home. I was bummed. I was looking forward to going to barre.
When I arrived back home, I got changed and kissed Drew. He was going to the gym, and I didn’t feel like working out if it wasn’t going to be barre class. I went to my parents to see my dogs.
When I arrived at my parents, I brushed Paris and Louie’s teeth. Then we got ready to go to breakfast. We went to Hanlon’s Cafe. For some reason, I was so hungry. I ordered the Handful; 2 pancakes, eggs, and hash browns.  I ate most of it. My parents and I sat around and drank a few more cups of coffee before it was time to go back home.
When we arrived back home, I kissed my dogs and got my keys. I said, goodbye to my parents and then I got in the car and drove home. I thought Drew was going to be there when I arrived home, but he wasn’t. He was still at the gym. I got changed again, and put another load of wash in the washer, and watched another episode of the Handmaid’s Tale.
When Drew came home, we kissed and brought up the towels that were in the dryer. I fell asleep on the couch, while he watched hockey. I was in and out of sleep. When I woke up from my nap, I checked my phone and I received an e-mail from my professor, the one who teaches Research Methodology. In the e-mail. she said that she is going to record my grade as a B. I saw that and was so happy. I told Drew about my grade and he was so proud of me. I was so satisfied with my first semester of grad school.
When I woke up, we made dinner. It was another night of fish, but it was so yummy. Drew finds all these different flavors. We are on a fish kick. After dinner, we watched Jersey Shore: Family Vacation. We didn’t get to finish the episode during the week. We got too tired. There was another episode on after this, but we were getting sleepy, so we called it quits after we finished the first episode.

Busy Day

Today, I drove to the bus stop by myself. Drew was off work today and had a dentist appointment to attend. When I got on the bus, I sat in the back where the engine is. I like the heat on my bum. I wore a dress today, because of the Ph.D commencement ceremony.  I had to dress up a bit. I  will have to dress up tomorrow too for the little commencement we are throwing our department.
When I arrived in Oakland, I went to Starbucks and got a venti, iced caramel macchiato. I should have had a hot drink, instead, but it was still so yummy. I was so cold walking to my building. I have an addiction to Starbucks. When I arrived to my building, I was on the phone with my mom for our usual morning talk. Sometimes it is okay, sometimes it is not. It just depends on the day.
When I arrived to my office, for some reason I could not remember the code to get into the department. Ugh, what is wrong with me? When I walked into my office, I got off the phone with my mom and sat down to start some requests and answer some e-mails. I was going to leave at 20 mins to 4pm today for the commencement and I wanted to get somethings done.
At lunch, I sat in the kitchen with Nancy, Kim, and Linda. We had a lot of laughs and good conversation. When I got my back to my desk, I did some more requests and answered a few e-mails. I am getting ready to close up shop for the day, and head to the Pete.
When we arrived at the Pete, Brian and I checked in and picked up our name tags. Then we went to dinner. On our way to dinner, we passed through one of the rooms that had monitors up on the wall, showing the different basketball players. I was in awe. There was this one hallway, where there were images of the great players in action on the court along the wall.

On the other side of the hallway was the training equipment, and rehab room where the players can train, or get worked on. It was so cool to see. We finally made our way up to the club level where dinner was. All the food looked so good. When we sat down at a table, Patrick from another office joined our table. He volunteers  every year, but he works with the Masters degree candidates and they are in a different part of the Pete.
At dinner, I got an e-mail from Max, my professor for Higher Education Administration. He said, the paper, participation, and overall grade is posted up on course web. I immediately logged on and saw that I received an A on the paper, an A on participation, and an A in the overall class. I was so happy and so relieved. One more class to go, and she was going to be able to work with me if  I didn’t do well on the final. She knows I am not a good test taker, but I have received As on the homework assignments, 100% on the paper, but I am just terrible at tests. I am hoping for a B, but I wouldn’t mind an A. I cannot get a C. A C is failing in grad school, unfortunately.

Around a quarter to 4pm, we went upstairs and reported to our posts. We met with Stacy, who gave us our sign in sheet and a clip board. Then we made our way over to our stations where Arts and Sciences were. We started checking in people, who arrived and helped them find their seats. I ran into some people from the music department. We chatted for a bit, it was good to see them. I tried to help someone with their tassel, a faculty member in Music was struggling with his tassel it was falling apart. The music librarian stepped into help and he said, “This is a tough one Angels.”  We all laughed.  Then I asked, “Can I be Cameron Diaz?” He started laughing so hard. He said, “I was thinking of the original.” I said, “Oh.” It was hilarious. Eventually the faculty member had to get a new tassel before the ceremony began.
At one point, I was talking to Brian and I looked over and there was my friend Mike from Athletics. I nodded to him and he approached me. He said, “How is it going?” I said, “it is going well, you?” He said, “Well we were having some building troubles but we are good now. The building was on lock down. They weren’t letting anyone in, but it is all good now.” I said, “Oh wow, that is crazy.” He told me to text him when I was done. I told him I definitely would. He was going to give me a tour. I was so excited a tour of the Pete!

After we got everyone lined up, and down the steps to the basketball court where the ceremony was going to be held. I stepped out of the rope, and next to me was Jason, from special events. He and I worked on a couple of events together, but then lost touch. We shook hands, and I said, I feel like we lost touch there for a while. He said, “Yea, I am sorry about that. I have been so busy.” I said, I understand, it happens. I tried to call your office, when I volunteered for this opportunity, but I figured you were busy. He said, “Yea, I am sorry. I didn’t return your call.” Then he got pulled away. I feel like it was weird after the frontiers conference. I didn’t really get asked to volunteer. I mean maybe I am reading into things, but I am trying to carve way into events, and or athletics, and I hope I didn’t do anything wrong. I wanted to ask someone about it.
When I left the room where I saw Jason, I went in an elevator back up to the Lawn Level where my purse was, which was under a table. I went to go find Mike first to let him know that I  was done. When I walked down the long hallway, I noticed there was a sign that said, “Athletics Department.” I walked through that door way and started roaming around looking for his office. I didn’t know what number his office was, or where to even find him. I did stumble upon  athletic director. Her office is so huge. It was so cool to be in this building.
After I exited that area, I went to another area, and I saw the tutoring rooms where the athletes recive special one on one instruction, and where they can take tests. I figured I was close, since he does something with advising. Eventually, I found his office. It was a corner office, no window, but it was much bigger than mine. I knocked on his door and he looked up. He said, “Are you done?” I said, “Yes, I am, but my purse is back towards the check in table.” He walked me back to the check in table, and I was able to retrieve my purse. I talked to Stacy the events director and she shook my hand. She said, “I kinda want to hug you.” I said, “awe of course.” We hugged and I hugged the other director that I worked with before on the frontier’s conference. I told Stacy my concerns and she said, that I shouldn’t think anything of it and that I didn’t do anything wrong and she will talk to Jason and keep her eyes out for me in the events department. I was glad to hear it. She asked me, if I was going to come on Sunday? I said, “I can if you want me to.”
Honestly, I didn’t want to work the undergraduate commencement, but this could be good for me to do so, so I figured I would just offer. It would be good for me to do, if they needed me. When I parted from them, Mike took me a full tour of the Pete. It was so cool to see. I was in awe. I went to go meet Drew. He was going to pick me up and take me home. I had so much to tell him about the Pete and my tour. He was going to be so jealous. When I got into the car with Drew, he congratulated me on my “A” grade  that I received in Higher Education Administration, and kissed me. He was so proud of me, and it felt so good. When we arrived home, I got a shower and sat down to watch the Penguins and Capitals game. We were obviously cheering for the Penguins. I painted my nails and toes. They needed to last me one more week, and then I was going to get them done again. I am so thankful for everything today.

Not a Good Day

This morning, I could tell that there was something on the horizon. I  didn’t know what, but I didn’t have a good feeling. I just felt so in my head with school and work. Yesterday, I had a one-on-one with my supervisor about things I need to work on, and about my review. It went okay, it’s things that I need to put in motion, when I am given the opportunity to do so, and things I can work on, it is all fixable. I plan to do all of these things. I just am trying to live up to everyone’s expectations in my work life, and the expectations I have set for myself, and then the professors expectations. I was just so in my head today.

Today, I was going to leave early to take my final for methodology. I wasn’t sure how it was going to go, because I am a terrible test taker, and I didn’t do too well on the midterm.
Around 12:40pm Brian came by to meet me. We had to head over to the Petersen to get our assignments. We were volunteering to be line marshals for the Ph.D commencement ceremony. I really want to get involved with Special Events, and or Athletics. I hope to eventually one day be in a position in one of those two departments.
When we arrived at the Loading Dock, we met with a woman from special events, I can’t remember her name, but we met before. She and I worked for the Frontier’s conference last year, or two years ago now. She remembered me, which was nice. She walked us up to the food court level, and told us our responsibilities. The graduates will be sitting in this area, and explained to us our duties. Nothing too major.
After we left the Pete, I went to the parking garage, and got into my car and drove home. Once I got home, I grabbed a beer, and made something to eat. I was a little hungry. Then I set up my computer and Andrew’s computer, so I could take the final on one, and research on the other. The final wasn’t too bad, I feel like I knew more, than I did on the midterm, but still I never know. There were a few I wasn’t too sure about and couldn’t find the answer in my notes, this always happens. I clicked submit and it only took me an hour or so.
Afterwards, I went to RMU and it felt good to drive on campus and be in familiar area. I really needed to be where things were familiar. I remember when this was my biggest hurdle in life. Things are harder; my job, grad school, and sometimes my marriage, but RMU is home. It is where it all started. It still has the same magical feeling to me, as it did, when I first arrived. I met my best friend here, Anthony. I grew so much here, academically, mentally, and emotionally.
When I got home, Drew was home. We greeted each other and he asked how many final went? I told him how I felt and how I wasn’t sure, but it felt like I knew more than I did on the midterm. I got ready to go to ballet barre class. I was going to be late, but at least it was something.
When i arrived, I missed some warm ups, so I just dove right into it. She changed up the routine a little, and I wasn’t quite getting the move that she was doing, so she came over and stood in front of me, so I could see and started do the move, so I could do it properly. I have never had to have that type of instruction. I know she was doing her job, so I fluffed it off, but I was so annoyed. I am good at this, usually, but just not today for some reason.
After barre was over, my butt and legs were swore so I know I definitely go something out of it, even though I was late to class. Chris, the instructor asked me if I went on my trip yet? I told her no, not until May 23-June 1st. She is supposed to train me, when we get back. I told her I was in grad school and it was preventing me from attending  class with finals, and papers, but it is over for the summer and I am hers. She said sounds good. I told her I would see her Sunday in Ambridge for barre class. She said, see you then kiddo.
When I left the gym, I went home, preheated the oven, and then got a shower. When I got out of the shower, I got dressed, and then went downstairs, put some fish in the oven, and made a protein shake. I was so over this day. I sat on the couch and turned on Reign. I wanted to finish the last few episodes. This was the least season. I am going to miss it. I love period dramas.
When Drew came home, he put the fish away, and then made me a lunch for tomorrow. He came into the living room and watched Reign with me. After Reign was over, he and I talked about my feelings and was there for me 100% and so supportive. He tells me I am hard on myself. I think I am too. I can’t help it. I don’t know how to not be. Afterwards, I went upstairs, brushed my teeth, and went to bed. It was going to be a long day tomorrow.

Sunday=Homework All Day

This morning, I made bacon for breakfast for Drew and I, had some coffee, got a shower, watched one episode of Reign. Then I and sat down at the computer and started to get to work on my revisions for my paper. I felt pretty confident. Sure there were some areas that I could expand, and minor punctuation fixes, but other than that I feel confident. I am ready to see my final grade and go to England!
After my paper corrections, I saved them and moved on to the next assignment which was my two home work assignments for Methodology, they were easy. Questions like find the answer in the article where this happened, or that. No math, and no formulas. I like easy.  After I finished the homework assignments, I e-mailed the professor and asked her when we would know the grade that we received on our paper. She said, she was working on them now, but won’t be able to release them until Dr. Lane gets back to her about a question she had regarding grading. She did also say, that I would not be disappointed.
After I finished the homework for methodology, I completed my oral presentation prep for Higher Education Administration. This is the same class, that I have been revising my paper for. I feel pretty confident about it. Me and someone else are the last people to give our presentations. I am not all that nervous. Public speaking is easy for me. It is just the time limit I am concerned about.
When I finished up for the day, it was around 4:30pm. Drew finished the laundry and started dinner. He is so helpful and is there for me 100%. After dinner, we watched the Office, and just relaxed the rest of the night. I got an e-mail from Dr. Q saying the grades for the paper are posted. I logged on and I received a 20/20! I got 100% on paper! I was so happy! I am ready to take on the week.

Writing All Day

This morning I woke up, I felt so much better. I was no longer hung over and disgusting. I got dressed, and made some coffee. Then, I went upstairs and started on my second paper. I had no clue. I started to talk more about the institution, then I just dove into it head first. I was on a move, but then I realized I forgot somethings in my office, in a drunken haze, and hurry to get out of the office. I forgot to grab the materials for my paper.
When Drew got out of the shower, he offered to drive down to Oakland with me. On the way we stopped at Dunkin and got coffee. When we arrived to Oakland, parked, and entered my building. I unlocked the door to Sociology department, and it was pitch black. I used my phone as a flash light to find my way to my office. I unlocked the door, grabbed my things and then we left. I was going to be back there sooner, than I liked to think.
When we arrived back home, I finished my paper with 2 pages and a source left to go. I am so ready to just be done. I like it, but damn I am glad it’s almost over, the semester that is.
After I finished my paper for the night, we ate dinner, and I was able to relax with Drew until it was time to go to bed. I had a long day tomorrow. I was hoping to feel more confident about this paper eventually.