Barre

This morning, I woke up refreshed and ready to go. We were on our way to the car and I said, “That is the smell of the promise of a new day!” He said, “Get in the car.” We both laughed. Somehow, some way I became a morning person and I am not sure why. I don’t mind mornings. It is weird. I never was this way as a kid, or even in high school. I was always moody in the mornings when I was younger.

When we arrived in Oakland, we stopped at Starbucks. I ordered a venti, iced caramel macchiato with an extra shot of espresso. Then I said, “And whatever this Ray of Sunshine wants.” She smiled and took down Drew’s order, and wrote on the cup his name and the words, “Ray of Sunshine.” I laughed. I told Drew what was on the cup and he laughed. I was hoping they would call it out, “Andrew Ray of Sunshine”, but they didn’t.

Today, Nancy is back! I am so happy to see her. She looks like she doesn’t want to be here. She says she is tired from the weekend and having two days off. I bet she is ready to just hang out and do whatever. Nothing too really exciting is going on today.

After work, I met up with Drew and we drove home. It was a bit of a long drive home. There was some traffic. After we got home, I got changed, kissed Drew goodbye, and went to the gym.

When I arrived at the gym, it was dead for the most part. I got on a treadmill and did five minutes of cardio before class. I like to get a little in before I start barre. When I was finished, I cleaned the machine and then walked into the basketball court area, where the class was being held. I grabbed a chair, a mat, weights, and a stretchy band. There were only 2 other people in the class. I liked it that way. I set up in the middle of the floor.

Next, to me, there was an 8-year-old girl, who was going to take the class for the first time. She thought it was going to be ballet, so she started doing little twirls up on the balls of her feet. I felt bad. She was also deaf and a little slow. I was hoping the instructor would be nice to her and go easy on her, but at the same time, I wanted to be sore the next day have a good class. Is that wrong of me?

When class got underway, we started our piles and leg work like always. Then, Chris, the instructor kept correcting the little girl. I felt so bad. We did the typical leg lifts with the chair, some arm works with the band. It seemed as soon as the little girl figured out what to do, we were on to the next exercise. It was hard for her to keep up. Of course, we did some ab work on the mats.

While we were laying down on the mats, I glanced over at the little girl and she smiled at me and gave me a thumbs up. I was touched. She looked at me to mimic my positions. She was trying so hard to keep up. I told her that I was sleepy in sign language. She said she was too. I do not know much ASL, but this little girl inspired me to learn.

After the class was over, we were putting our stuff back, and cleaning our mats. The little girl approached me and gave me a high five. I high fived her and said, we did it. She smiled and gave me a thumbs up. She asked me how old I was. She signed me her age. I signed her my age. She was shocked. It was cute. She was cute.

When I was getting ready to leave the gym, her mom was sitting on a chair waiting for her daughter. I said she is so cute. Her mom was a little deaf too, but she seemed to be able to hear bits and pieces. She said, Thank you with her voice and in sign language. The little girl was trying to get my attention, so I looked back at her. She said, “Goodnight” to me in sign language. I looked at her mom. Her mom taught me how to sign goodnight. I had so many things in my hands; my phone, keys, earbuds, and water. I tried to sign using what hand motions I could with how much I had in my hands. She smiled and gave me thumbs up. I said, Goodbye to Chris and then I was on my way home.

When I arrived home, I packed up to go to my parents, and then I got a shower. It is so much to pack up to go over there for a few days.  I put all my stuff by the stairs. I got a text from Drew’s mom asking we could pick up Aunt Tootsie and bring her over to his parents for dinner on Sunday? I said I would ask Drew when he got home from the gym. I told her that I am just meeting him at your place because my mom and I are getting pedicures in the morning before heading over.

After I sent the text, I called Drew and asked him if he would be okay with picking up Aunt Tootsie and taking her to his parents on Sunday? He said, yea no problem. I said, Steve and Maryann may pick her up, but they haven’t confirmed if they are coming to dinner yet or not. He said, not a problem. I texted Drew’s mom and told her that I just spoke with Drew and he said, he can pick her up if need be. She said, thank you. I thought to myself damn he is way easier going than I am.

Not a Good Day

This morning, I could tell that there was something on the horizon. I  didn’t know what, but I didn’t have a good feeling. I just felt so in my head with school and work. Yesterday, I had a one-on-one with my supervisor about things I need to work on, and about my review. It went okay, it’s things that I need to put in motion, when I am given the opportunity to do so, and things I can work on, it is all fixable. I plan to do all of these things. I just am trying to live up to everyone’s expectations in my work life, and the expectations I have set for myself, and then the professors expectations. I was just so in my head today.

Today, I was going to leave early to take my final for methodology. I wasn’t sure how it was going to go, because I am a terrible test taker, and I didn’t do too well on the midterm.
Around 12:40pm Brian came by to meet me. We had to head over to the Petersen to get our assignments. We were volunteering to be line marshals for the Ph.D commencement ceremony. I really want to get involved with Special Events, and or Athletics. I hope to eventually one day be in a position in one of those two departments.
When we arrived at the Loading Dock, we met with a woman from special events, I can’t remember her name, but we met before. She and I worked for the Frontier’s conference last year, or two years ago now. She remembered me, which was nice. She walked us up to the food court level, and told us our responsibilities. The graduates will be sitting in this area, and explained to us our duties. Nothing too major.
After we left the Pete, I went to the parking garage, and got into my car and drove home. Once I got home, I grabbed a beer, and made something to eat. I was a little hungry. Then I set up my computer and Andrew’s computer, so I could take the final on one, and research on the other. The final wasn’t too bad, I feel like I knew more, than I did on the midterm, but still I never know. There were a few I wasn’t too sure about and couldn’t find the answer in my notes, this always happens. I clicked submit and it only took me an hour or so.
Afterwards, I went to RMU and it felt good to drive on campus and be in familiar area. I really needed to be where things were familiar. I remember when this was my biggest hurdle in life. Things are harder; my job, grad school, and sometimes my marriage, but RMU is home. It is where it all started. It still has the same magical feeling to me, as it did, when I first arrived. I met my best friend here, Anthony. I grew so much here, academically, mentally, and emotionally.
When I got home, Drew was home. We greeted each other and he asked how many final went? I told him how I felt and how I wasn’t sure, but it felt like I knew more than I did on the midterm. I got ready to go to ballet barre class. I was going to be late, but at least it was something.
When i arrived, I missed some warm ups, so I just dove right into it. She changed up the routine a little, and I wasn’t quite getting the move that she was doing, so she came over and stood in front of me, so I could see and started do the move, so I could do it properly. I have never had to have that type of instruction. I know she was doing her job, so I fluffed it off, but I was so annoyed. I am good at this, usually, but just not today for some reason.
After barre was over, my butt and legs were swore so I know I definitely go something out of it, even though I was late to class. Chris, the instructor asked me if I went on my trip yet? I told her no, not until May 23-June 1st. She is supposed to train me, when we get back. I told her I was in grad school and it was preventing me from attending  class with finals, and papers, but it is over for the summer and I am hers. She said sounds good. I told her I would see her Sunday in Ambridge for barre class. She said, see you then kiddo.
When I left the gym, I went home, preheated the oven, and then got a shower. When I got out of the shower, I got dressed, and then went downstairs, put some fish in the oven, and made a protein shake. I was so over this day. I sat on the couch and turned on Reign. I wanted to finish the last few episodes. This was the least season. I am going to miss it. I love period dramas.
When Drew came home, he put the fish away, and then made me a lunch for tomorrow. He came into the living room and watched Reign with me. After Reign was over, he and I talked about my feelings and was there for me 100% and so supportive. He tells me I am hard on myself. I think I am too. I can’t help it. I don’t know how to not be. Afterwards, I went upstairs, brushed my teeth, and went to bed. It was going to be a long day tomorrow.

Workshop

This afternoon I had a work shop in Craig hall. I am working towards the admin professional’s certificate. The weather was nice outside, so I was anxious to get out for a bit and walk around. I listened to some music on my way to the workshop and I was kind of in my head a little bit today.
When I arrived to the workshop, I set my things down a table in front, and the workshop was about Time Management. I feel as though this workshop will confirm that I am on the right track. I do have good time management skills, but there is always more to learn.
At one point, she let us take a break, get some water, and use the restroom. The presenter and I talked about the certificate and I told her I was close to completing it. I asked her what the capstone portion was like. She said, oh it’s easy. We just invite you back, and we have a conversation about the things you learned, and then you receive your certificate. It is nothing intense. I said, oh okay. I was glad to hear that I didn’t have to write a paper or anything.
After the workshop was over, I walked back to Posvar and managed to escape the rain. I enjoy the walk from Craig to Posvar. It is nice to clear my head some. I don’t mind walking by myself either. Some people here like to walk in herds, not I. I don’t mind the alone time.
When I finally arrived to barre class, it had already started, so I grabbed my materials, and mouthed, “Sorry” to the instructor. She smiled and I set up and got right into it. Some positions felt easier to do, others still felt hard to do. I am getting there. I will miss barre this Sunday due to having to write my paper.  I will plan to go next Sunday, assuming my school work is done. There will be plenty of time for barre after my school work is done.  After class, I told the instructor I would have to miss barre on Sunday, due to school work and she laughed and said, “I remember those days.” I laughed. I told her I would see her next Wednesday.
When I went back to my house, I got a shower and laid on the couch, I was so tired. Drew was due home tonight. His flight was going to be delayed. He wouldn’t get home until 12am. I went upstairs to lay down, but I left the living room light on. I planned to get up and greet him at the door, when he arrived.
Around 12:15am he came home, I was so happy to see him. I got up and went downstairs to greet him at the door. I opened it for him, as he lugged his suitcase into the house. We hugged and kissed. I did miss him so much. I was glad to have him back, but there was definitely going to be an adjustment period for him. There was a time change in Oregon, 2 1/2 hours behind us. He opened his suitcase and gave me the gifts he bought me. We have an inside joke about beavers, so he bought me a beaver since Oregon State University is home of the Beavers. He also bought me a teddy bear dressed like an Oregon State cheerleader. He is so thoughtful. I am glad he is finally home, safe and sound

Barre Wednesday

This morning, I woke up and I was in some pain. I had pain in my lower back, and on the left side of my pelvis.  I thought this is for sure period pain. It is going to come today! The past couple days, I haven’t been feeling all that great. I have had nausea and I have been so tired, but I think that it is all hormone related.

At work, Nancy the other admin and I were talking about families, and some of the things she has experienced with her family. She noticed I haven’t been feeling all that great, and was wondering if maybe I was pregnant. She wanted me to take a test. I knew I wasn’t. Drew and I have been so busy and I have had so much work to do for grad school, we have to have sex in order to get pregnant. 😉

Around 3pm, I went to the restroom and my period was here. I know this is TMI, but I was so happy. I told Nancy it was here and she laughed. We were both relieved. Nancy is like my second mother. She tells me I am like her kid all the time. I was cramping so badly, and I walked slow to the cathedral to meet Drew.

When I met up with him, he asked how I was doing? I told him I was okay, but I was cramping. He asked if I still wanted to go to barre, and I told him yes. I didn’t want to miss barre. When we got home, I got changed and ready to go to barre class.

There was so much traffic getting on to the Sewickley bridge. I did a U-Turn, but Stoops Ferry road.  Apparently 65 was closed due to a landslide. Once I got to the gym, I parked my car and walked in. I thought how am I going to exercise with these cramps? I walked past the basketball court and there were still kids playing b-ball, so I walked to where the treadmills were, and I saw Erin. She was going to come to class with me, but wanted to get some cardio in before class. I decided to do the same. The only treadmill that was open was next to this man, so I got on the treadmill, and there was a man standing in front of the treadmill talking to the guy, who was next to me on the neighboring treadmill. I didn’t bring my headphones, so I had to hear their conversation. I walked on the treadmill for about 5 mins, before I got off and walked away. I couldn’t take it anymore. They were talking about the tuxedos for the one guy’s,  daughter’s wedding. How they have it so easy and the women don’t. I was so irritable and didn’t care to hear their conversation.

When I walked into the basketball court area, it was mostly clear except for a couple kids still shooting hoops, the instructor walked in and told the children to leave, she has a class in here now. The children took their time. My instructor means business. I got a chair, a mat, and 2 pound weights. I went over to my spot. I set up my stuff and kicked off my shoes. I took off my socks, and got ready for class. Right before class started, Erin came in and set up next to me. I told her to grab at least 2 pound weights. She said, “okay.” she grabbed weights and went back over to the mat next to me.

The instructor turned on the music, and started the class. We started with piles and leg work. After we finished legs, my legs were shaking. My thighs were so wobbly. We moved to arms. I grabbed my weights and stood in first position and we worked our arms in different motions with the weights.

Then it happened, at one point the instructor kept correcting Erin. She was saying that her form isn’t right, and if the weights are too heavy, then she should grab smaller weights. She said, “what do you have? 5 pounds?” Erin said, “yes, this is my second work out today.” The instructor still encouraged her to get smaller weights. Then the instructor corrected her form again, and said she won’t get anything out of it, if her form isn’t right. Erin took her weights back to the rack and then put her shoes on, and grabbed her chair and mat. She put the chair and mat away, and then told me to come find her after class. The entire time I am trying to follow the instructor and trying to pay attention in the class. I like Erin, but I was just so annoyed. The instructor approached Erin as she was leaving and said, she just didn’t want her to get hurt. Erin said, I am not a novice fitness person, I know how to lift weights. It’s okay, I will just finish my work out in there and pointed to the cardio area where the treadmills are located. I shook my head a bit. I really was so annoyed.

After arms, we got down on the mat, and my iwatch lit up it was a text from Erin, more like a 2 page story about her thoughts on the instructor. I thought oh my God. I will talk to you after class. I am in class right now, leave me alone. I know you left. I was there. I know you are upset, but  damn. The ab work out was ridiculously hard for me today. I wonder if the instructor was upset that Erin left and was taking it out on my abs!

After class, I put my weights back, my chair, and wiped off my mat. The instructor asked me if I knew that girl. I said, I just know her from coming here, that is all. She said, oh okay, well I don’t want her to get upset with me. I was just trying to do my job and instruct her, and encourage her to get smaller weights. I said, oh i know, but she feels she is advanced and was going to listen to anyone else, that is her problem. She said, “yea, but I am going to get flack for it from Adrienne.” I said, go talk to her now and tell her your side, and it will be okay. I will vouch for you. She was glad to hear that and appreciated me being there for her. Honestly, I do like Erin, but at the same time, I have grown to respect my barre instructor, and I felt Erin was wrong on this one. I was annoyed with her too.

After I left the instructor, I went over to the weight room where Drew was and told him about the drama. Then I sort of looked for Erin. She told me to find her after class. I really didn’t want to. I was hoping she would have left by now. I did see her on the ab machine. I took a deep breath and approached her. I wanted to tell her how annoying she was, and how she acted like a child, but I didn’t. She apologized and said she didn’t like the instructor’s style, and how she called her out in class. I shrugged my shoulders, and told her I understand her perspective. I told her I had to get going. She understood. I wanted to leave before I said something out of turn.

When I got home, I got a shower, drank protein drink and watched Reign, until Drew came home. Tomorrow was going to be a better day. I just know it.

Take Me to the Barre

Take Me to the Barre

After work today, I went to Barre class again. This was my second time. I was a bit bloated and hormonal. I am waiting for my monthly visitor to arrive, but they say exercise is best when you are PMSing. We changed it up a bit, but still did piles and some work up on our toes, but we added tondues as well.

Typically the right for your arms, when you are doing tondues to the back is keep your arms right arm straight out in front of you (if you are working your right foot).   Since I had previous ballet training, this is what I am accustomed to (hair flip). However, some people in the class haven’t had it, so she just says to keep your arm out to side, since it is easier for people. We had a little conversation on the side there about arm positions in ballet.
When it came time for the abdominal part, I think it went well. I did better than did last week. It is going to get easier. I did a plank for 10 seconds, a new record for me! I hate planking.  After class, I told her that I was planning on attending her barre class next Sunday at her friend’s dance studio. She was glad to hear it. We wished each other happy Easter, then I went home to my husband.
When I walked in, he was folding laundry. He had a long week at work, and I know he was ready for the week to be over.  He skipped out on the gym. I went up and got a shower, got dressed in sweats and a t-shirt, then we watched the Office until we went to bed.

Barre Class

After work today, I went to the gym and instead of doing my normal treadmill routine, I noticed that my barre instructor was in the large gym getting ready to lead a class. I knew it was barre, because I saw the chairs, and the mats. I walked in and put my stuff in the back and grabbed a chair, a mat, and a stretchy band. I figured why not. I love this class, and I haven’t done it in awhile, since I got a full time job.
When the class began, she noticed me and smiled. We started with piles, and Relevés my thighs were screaming.  Then I remembered I have to dress up nicely tomorrow for the visitation which means heels. I like the ballet part. The abdominal work out, not so much. I am not a fan. I was a little rusty, but glad to be back.
At the end of class, I talked to my instructor. I asked her what she charges per hour, and she said, $55. She can come to your house to train me, the gym, or at her friend’s dance studio.  I said, I will definitely talk to my husband. She gave me her number. She also told me to keep coming to barre twice a week. She teaches it at her friend’s dance studio on Sunday’s at 9:30am. She said no bread, no pasta. I am going to do this. I can do this. I don’t have much to lose, it just I need to get back in shape and get toned up. No excuse not to.
After barre, I hopped on the treadmill, and Drew came over to talk to me. He thinks $55 an hour is a bit steep, but I told him that trainers can cost $80-$100 an hour, typically. He sort of agreed with me, but wants us to wait until after England. I understand and agree with him. We spending a lot of money for this trip to England. Then I realized I had to stop at Wal-Mart. He offered to go for me, even though I had to pick up mascara. He just wanted me to send him a picture of what kind I needed. He is the sweetest. I am one lucky girl