Today, Drew was home to let the Bath Fitter guy in to the house, and I was so excited for our new shower. Today, was my last day on the assignment at the Music Department. I had mixed feelings. Sad, because I am going to miss everyone. Also, I don’t want to be on the couch long. Happy, because now I don’t have to deal with Geri, and I have an interview tomorrow with CMU!
The day, dragged on and on, but when it was almost time to go. Frank decided he was not going to my happy hour. I was sad, because he and I did grow close, but it appeared he didn’t want to go and simply made up an excuse, as to not go.
When it was time to leave, I had to run back to the office and grab my coat. I turned to look back at the office once more. I remember when Paula first brought me there. She flipped on the lights and it looked like a cave with a nice computer. I never thought I would like it there. I never thought I would want to leave this place. I took a deep breath, smiled, and shut the door. I had a happy hour to get to and a 3-hour long interview tomorrow.
We walked to the Butterjoint on North Craig. Paula, AJ, Phil, Irene, and myself were in attendance. Irene brought Marco. I was gifted with Psycho Racoon, a card, and a $50 Starbucks gift card. I felt so blessed. I had three 7 and 7s. Drew checked up on me, here and there. He was being so sweet reminding me to be careful, but this was my happy hour, and I don’t do this to him. I let him alone. Whatever. It is okay. He was just being nice and caring. He loves me.
After Paula, AJ, and Phil left, it was just Irene and I. I had one more drink, then it was time to go. Irene asked me about married life, and what is like to be a wife. I remember being so naïve about marriage and a wedding as well. I am happy most days. I am ready for something of my own. I miss having my own stuff. CMU would be mine. Here is to hoping! I finally got on the bus, and took the 28x back to Robinson to my car. I was sobering up and ready to drive home. I felt safe and sober. Once I got to my parent’s I played with my dogs, said Hi to my parents, then went to bed. I was so tired and I had a huge day tomorrow.
Today, nothing so far. I have a jazz committee meeting at 12pm at Panera. I am sure that will be so interesting. Geri called me and told me earlier that week to fall back at the meetings and not to say anything. I was very offended, because I thought my input was allowed, even though I was a temp in the position, but I still interviewed for the position and was doing most of the work on Geri’s end to help prep for the event and this is how I am treated?
At the meeting, I did exactly that, and when I was asked about something, I didn’t offer any input. I just said whatever you need me to do I will do. Amy sat next to me and let me use some of her oils. She gave me balance. I needed to balance out my emotions and calm down. The entire meeting I was huffing the oils, and breathing in the scent. I feel like such a druggie, but hey it worked.
Today, is my last day at FedEx. It is bittersweet. I am sort of glad to see it end. I think it was time to move on. I am not really going to miss it here at all. I will miss the people, and think about them often, but the job itself was boring, probably because I was a temp.
However, I am sure if they were to bring me on full-time they would have me doing more. My feelings would be different, but whatever. The lady that I am replacing is coming back Monday. I really got to be a part of so much here. I had a little bit more responsibility more than, I ever was able to have before. Jim utilized me more than Harry. Harry didn’t want me to do too much for him, because when Dorothy came back, things would go back to the way they were. Jim had me organizing his One Note, attending staff meetings, making flight arrangements, building itineraries for his team members, etc. Venkat allowed me to proof read a document for him that was a legal document. He wanted me to make sure it was clear in civilian terms. I felt like I had a little more responsibility with this position. I knew I could handle this and more. I just needed the right position for it to work for me.
Before I left, I stopped by Venkat’s office, and he gave me a hug and wished me well. He handed me a little box. Inside the box was a little “FedEx” pin. I was so touched. I almost cried. I never felt before like I meant so much to organization before. If the opportunity was ideal, then I would definitely work with FedEx full-time.
Today, I am listen to songs from my youth, and the one that I am listening to at the moment, is Hilary Duff’s song, “Fly.” This song comes on right before a big break through happens in my life. It is a good song and very inspirational. I will see where this next adventure takes me, but now it’s time to “Fly!” More later.