Wednesday

This morning, I posted my original discussion post for my online class. The original post is due by Friday 6/28. The post is based on Neil Postman’s novel The End of Education. I liked Postman. It was an interesting read. I wanted to get my discussion post submitted  early and stay ahead of the game. I am going to start reading the next book, which is called Seeking Common Ground Public Schools in a Diverse Society by David Tyack. The discussion post for Tyack isn’t due until next week, but I will start it this weekend after I finish the book. I also want to start writing the first draft of our paper that is due next weekend, as well.

After work, I went to the gym and it was packed in there. It wasn’t that comfortable in there either temperature wise. I did the treadmill for a mile, then did some strength training and called it a night.

When I got home, I made my sausage keto stuffed peppers, and got a shower, then put on some pjs and watched The Handmaid’s Tale. Season 3 is everything so far! I am so hooked. This episode had me shook to the core!

Spoiler Alert: I am going to talk a little bit about the episode. I really don’t want Nicole going back to Gilead I am hopeful she will stay in Canada. Then commander Blaine being a member of the Gilead crusade and never telling Nicole! I was a little shocked, but not really, when he said his new post was at the front, why else would a driver be going to the front!? I like June (Elizabeth Moss is a bad ass). I do think it was brave of her to record that recording for her husband and tell him that Nicole was conceived out of love and how she loved Nick! I just can’t. I love this show!

Tired and Not Feeling it

After work today,  I went with Anthony to the gym.  He didn’t get home until about 7pm. I was dressed for the gym but laying on the couch. I thought seriously about not going. I drove to his house and then parked my car. I got into his car and we drove to the gym.
On the way, we talked about work, my grad classes, the group paper and he gave me some advice, this guy he is talking to, and etc.
When we arrived at the gym, we played some basketball for a bit, then went towards the cardio machines. I was just not into it. I was so tired and ready to go home. We waved to Drew, who was in the weight room lifting weights. Then, we hopped onto the elliptical. I typically treadmill it up before I do the elliptical.
While we were on the elliptical, we watched John McCain’s casket arrive at St. Andrew’s base. We watch them transport the casket, into the motorcade. It is so sad for his family. Megan McCain couldn’t stop crying it seemed. Cindy McCain looked stone-faced. I can’t imagine losing my husband or burying my dad. Anthony had me laughing for a bit.
At one point, Drew came over to say hi. He said to me, “I haven’t seen you smile this big, at the gym ever before.” I agree with him. Typically, I am not a happy camper at the gym. It is nice to have Anthony there with me someone to talk and laugh with while working out.
After we finished the elliptical, we did some strength training, then it was time to go. We drove back to his house, and I got into my car and drove home. When I got home, I was happy to see Drew. He could tell that I was just ready for bed. We hung out for a bit, then I went up to get a shower and lay down. We try to go to bed at the same time, but I am usually in bed and asleep before him. Tomorrow was Friday and it was about to be Labor Day weekend!

Sunday, Drew’s Parents for Dinner

This morning, we took it easy. We drank some coffee and watched Smallville. We are on season 3 now, Clark meets Lois for the first time. I am such a sucker for Superman, especially Tom Welling. After Smallville, we got ready and went to the gym. I was going to try to get a really good work out in and run again. I am really trying to get back into it, without thinking about it too much.
The gym was a bit packed, I wasn’t sure how long I was going to stay, but whatever. I went to it. I got on a treadmill started out at a 3.5 speed on a 3.5 incline for about 10 mins, then I turned the incline down to 0.0 and increased the speed to 4.5 and started to run for at least 4 mins. I used to be able to run for 7 mins, but it’s not happening as of late. I can’t wait to get back to that. I did another walking session back at 3.5 speed and a 3.5 incline and walked for 10 mins, before kicking it back up again and running again. I did this for about 30 mins, and then I got off the treadmill. I used to do an hour of cardio, but I have been talking to a few people and they said, that all you need is at least 20-30 mins of cardio anymore than that is ridiculous.
After the treadmill, I did some weights. I did the lat machine three sets of 20. I was sore the last time I did this, and I like that feeling. After the lat machine, I did the hip abductor. I looked over and saw Drew in the weight room lifting weights, he looks so in his zone. I am struggling so bad getting back into this.
After the strength training machines, I went home to get a shower and get ready to go to his parents. I put on some comfy beach pants that I got at Old Navy. I am so in love with that store. I paired the striped blue and white pants with a white tank top. I was just going comfy. When Drew got home, he got showed and then we were on our way to his parents.
When we arrived, his dad was already cooking on the grill and the dinner was almost ready. It has been a while since we were over there for dinner. His dad made steaks, potatoes, hot dogs, hamburgers, salad, some cheese spread with cut up pastrami over peppers, baked potatoes, and sweet potatoes. I was ready for a steak. I was so sick of hamburgers and hot dogs. We talked about work, school, grandma, Tommy and Megan’s new dog waffles; I can’t wait to meet him. For dessert, we sang happy birthday and had cake, chocolate covered pretzels, and because they know I am not a fan of chocolate cake they bought me a piece of vanilla cheesecake. I am so hormonal and thanked them for the cheesecake, but told them I am going to have a small piece of cake today.
After cake, Drew opened the gift he got Bose wireless headphones. We are not too sure what happened to his other headphones. The cake was so good. It had pieces of chocolate chips in it, so yummy. I got up and went into the living room and laid on the couch. I was so full. I ended up falling asleep.
While I napped, Drew helped his mom set up her Fitbit. We gave her his old one. After he finished setting it up, Drew came over and kissed my cheek to wake me up. He is so sweet. He said, “Want to go soon?” I said, “Okay.” I smiled and got up from the couch. His mom packed us up at a doggie bag to take home. I love when they do that, because it is helpful to us. The leftover food will help with his lunches and dinners for a couple of days. It seems like Drew had a great birthday weekend, now to get home and start a new week again.

Barre

This morning, I woke up refreshed and ready to go. We were on our way to the car and I said, “That is the smell of the promise of a new day!” He said, “Get in the car.” We both laughed. Somehow, some way I became a morning person and I am not sure why. I don’t mind mornings. It is weird. I never was this way as a kid, or even in high school. I was always moody in the mornings when I was younger.

When we arrived in Oakland, we stopped at Starbucks. I ordered a venti, iced caramel macchiato with an extra shot of espresso. Then I said, “And whatever this Ray of Sunshine wants.” She smiled and took down Drew’s order, and wrote on the cup his name and the words, “Ray of Sunshine.” I laughed. I told Drew what was on the cup and he laughed. I was hoping they would call it out, “Andrew Ray of Sunshine”, but they didn’t.

Today, Nancy is back! I am so happy to see her. She looks like she doesn’t want to be here. She says she is tired from the weekend and having two days off. I bet she is ready to just hang out and do whatever. Nothing too really exciting is going on today.

After work, I met up with Drew and we drove home. It was a bit of a long drive home. There was some traffic. After we got home, I got changed, kissed Drew goodbye, and went to the gym.

When I arrived at the gym, it was dead for the most part. I got on a treadmill and did five minutes of cardio before class. I like to get a little in before I start barre. When I was finished, I cleaned the machine and then walked into the basketball court area, where the class was being held. I grabbed a chair, a mat, weights, and a stretchy band. There were only 2 other people in the class. I liked it that way. I set up in the middle of the floor.

Next, to me, there was an 8-year-old girl, who was going to take the class for the first time. She thought it was going to be ballet, so she started doing little twirls up on the balls of her feet. I felt bad. She was also deaf and a little slow. I was hoping the instructor would be nice to her and go easy on her, but at the same time, I wanted to be sore the next day have a good class. Is that wrong of me?

When class got underway, we started our piles and leg work like always. Then, Chris, the instructor kept correcting the little girl. I felt so bad. We did the typical leg lifts with the chair, some arm works with the band. It seemed as soon as the little girl figured out what to do, we were on to the next exercise. It was hard for her to keep up. Of course, we did some ab work on the mats.

While we were laying down on the mats, I glanced over at the little girl and she smiled at me and gave me a thumbs up. I was touched. She looked at me to mimic my positions. She was trying so hard to keep up. I told her that I was sleepy in sign language. She said she was too. I do not know much ASL, but this little girl inspired me to learn.

After the class was over, we were putting our stuff back, and cleaning our mats. The little girl approached me and gave me a high five. I high fived her and said, we did it. She smiled and gave me a thumbs up. She asked me how old I was. She signed me her age. I signed her my age. She was shocked. It was cute. She was cute.

When I was getting ready to leave the gym, her mom was sitting on a chair waiting for her daughter. I said she is so cute. Her mom was a little deaf too, but she seemed to be able to hear bits and pieces. She said, Thank you with her voice and in sign language. The little girl was trying to get my attention, so I looked back at her. She said, “Goodnight” to me in sign language. I looked at her mom. Her mom taught me how to sign goodnight. I had so many things in my hands; my phone, keys, earbuds, and water. I tried to sign using what hand motions I could with how much I had in my hands. She smiled and gave me thumbs up. I said, Goodbye to Chris and then I was on my way home.

When I arrived home, I packed up to go to my parents, and then I got a shower. It is so much to pack up to go over there for a few days.  I put all my stuff by the stairs. I got a text from Drew’s mom asking we could pick up Aunt Tootsie and bring her over to his parents for dinner on Sunday? I said I would ask Drew when he got home from the gym. I told her that I am just meeting him at your place because my mom and I are getting pedicures in the morning before heading over.

After I sent the text, I called Drew and asked him if he would be okay with picking up Aunt Tootsie and taking her to his parents on Sunday? He said, yea no problem. I said, Steve and Maryann may pick her up, but they haven’t confirmed if they are coming to dinner yet or not. He said, not a problem. I texted Drew’s mom and told her that I just spoke with Drew and he said, he can pick her up if need be. She said, thank you. I thought to myself damn he is way easier going than I am.

Barre Wednesday

This morning, I woke up and I was in some pain. I had pain in my lower back, and on the left side of my pelvis.  I thought this is for sure period pain. It is going to come today! The past couple days, I haven’t been feeling all that great. I have had nausea and I have been so tired, but I think that it is all hormone related.

At work, Nancy the other admin and I were talking about families, and some of the things she has experienced with her family. She noticed I haven’t been feeling all that great, and was wondering if maybe I was pregnant. She wanted me to take a test. I knew I wasn’t. Drew and I have been so busy and I have had so much work to do for grad school, we have to have sex in order to get pregnant. 😉

Around 3pm, I went to the restroom and my period was here. I know this is TMI, but I was so happy. I told Nancy it was here and she laughed. We were both relieved. Nancy is like my second mother. She tells me I am like her kid all the time. I was cramping so badly, and I walked slow to the cathedral to meet Drew.

When I met up with him, he asked how I was doing? I told him I was okay, but I was cramping. He asked if I still wanted to go to barre, and I told him yes. I didn’t want to miss barre. When we got home, I got changed and ready to go to barre class.

There was so much traffic getting on to the Sewickley bridge. I did a U-Turn, but Stoops Ferry road.  Apparently 65 was closed due to a landslide. Once I got to the gym, I parked my car and walked in. I thought how am I going to exercise with these cramps? I walked past the basketball court and there were still kids playing b-ball, so I walked to where the treadmills were, and I saw Erin. She was going to come to class with me, but wanted to get some cardio in before class. I decided to do the same. The only treadmill that was open was next to this man, so I got on the treadmill, and there was a man standing in front of the treadmill talking to the guy, who was next to me on the neighboring treadmill. I didn’t bring my headphones, so I had to hear their conversation. I walked on the treadmill for about 5 mins, before I got off and walked away. I couldn’t take it anymore. They were talking about the tuxedos for the one guy’s,  daughter’s wedding. How they have it so easy and the women don’t. I was so irritable and didn’t care to hear their conversation.

When I walked into the basketball court area, it was mostly clear except for a couple kids still shooting hoops, the instructor walked in and told the children to leave, she has a class in here now. The children took their time. My instructor means business. I got a chair, a mat, and 2 pound weights. I went over to my spot. I set up my stuff and kicked off my shoes. I took off my socks, and got ready for class. Right before class started, Erin came in and set up next to me. I told her to grab at least 2 pound weights. She said, “okay.” she grabbed weights and went back over to the mat next to me.

The instructor turned on the music, and started the class. We started with piles and leg work. After we finished legs, my legs were shaking. My thighs were so wobbly. We moved to arms. I grabbed my weights and stood in first position and we worked our arms in different motions with the weights.

Then it happened, at one point the instructor kept correcting Erin. She was saying that her form isn’t right, and if the weights are too heavy, then she should grab smaller weights. She said, “what do you have? 5 pounds?” Erin said, “yes, this is my second work out today.” The instructor still encouraged her to get smaller weights. Then the instructor corrected her form again, and said she won’t get anything out of it, if her form isn’t right. Erin took her weights back to the rack and then put her shoes on, and grabbed her chair and mat. She put the chair and mat away, and then told me to come find her after class. The entire time I am trying to follow the instructor and trying to pay attention in the class. I like Erin, but I was just so annoyed. The instructor approached Erin as she was leaving and said, she just didn’t want her to get hurt. Erin said, I am not a novice fitness person, I know how to lift weights. It’s okay, I will just finish my work out in there and pointed to the cardio area where the treadmills are located. I shook my head a bit. I really was so annoyed.

After arms, we got down on the mat, and my iwatch lit up it was a text from Erin, more like a 2 page story about her thoughts on the instructor. I thought oh my God. I will talk to you after class. I am in class right now, leave me alone. I know you left. I was there. I know you are upset, but  damn. The ab work out was ridiculously hard for me today. I wonder if the instructor was upset that Erin left and was taking it out on my abs!

After class, I put my weights back, my chair, and wiped off my mat. The instructor asked me if I knew that girl. I said, I just know her from coming here, that is all. She said, oh okay, well I don’t want her to get upset with me. I was just trying to do my job and instruct her, and encourage her to get smaller weights. I said, oh i know, but she feels she is advanced and was going to listen to anyone else, that is her problem. She said, “yea, but I am going to get flack for it from Adrienne.” I said, go talk to her now and tell her your side, and it will be okay. I will vouch for you. She was glad to hear that and appreciated me being there for her. Honestly, I do like Erin, but at the same time, I have grown to respect my barre instructor, and I felt Erin was wrong on this one. I was annoyed with her too.

After I left the instructor, I went over to the weight room where Drew was and told him about the drama. Then I sort of looked for Erin. She told me to find her after class. I really didn’t want to. I was hoping she would have left by now. I did see her on the ab machine. I took a deep breath and approached her. I wanted to tell her how annoying she was, and how she acted like a child, but I didn’t. She apologized and said she didn’t like the instructor’s style, and how she called her out in class. I shrugged my shoulders, and told her I understand her perspective. I told her I had to get going. She understood. I wanted to leave before I said something out of turn.

When I got home, I got a shower, drank protein drink and watched Reign, until Drew came home. Tomorrow was going to be a better day. I just know it.

Barre Class

After work today, I went to the gym and instead of doing my normal treadmill routine, I noticed that my barre instructor was in the large gym getting ready to lead a class. I knew it was barre, because I saw the chairs, and the mats. I walked in and put my stuff in the back and grabbed a chair, a mat, and a stretchy band. I figured why not. I love this class, and I haven’t done it in awhile, since I got a full time job.
When the class began, she noticed me and smiled. We started with piles, and Relevés my thighs were screaming.  Then I remembered I have to dress up nicely tomorrow for the visitation which means heels. I like the ballet part. The abdominal work out, not so much. I am not a fan. I was a little rusty, but glad to be back.
At the end of class, I talked to my instructor. I asked her what she charges per hour, and she said, $55. She can come to your house to train me, the gym, or at her friend’s dance studio.  I said, I will definitely talk to my husband. She gave me her number. She also told me to keep coming to barre twice a week. She teaches it at her friend’s dance studio on Sunday’s at 9:30am. She said no bread, no pasta. I am going to do this. I can do this. I don’t have much to lose, it just I need to get back in shape and get toned up. No excuse not to.
After barre, I hopped on the treadmill, and Drew came over to talk to me. He thinks $55 an hour is a bit steep, but I told him that trainers can cost $80-$100 an hour, typically. He sort of agreed with me, but wants us to wait until after England. I understand and agree with him. We spending a lot of money for this trip to England. Then I realized I had to stop at Wal-Mart. He offered to go for me, even though I had to pick up mascara. He just wanted me to send him a picture of what kind I needed. He is the sweetest. I am one lucky girl

Emotions are High

Today, we had a slow start to the day. We got ready went to the gym, and I really wasn’t feeling it today, but I did some cardio and a little strength training. Then went back on the treadmill. I was going to leave, but I did 20 more mins. My friend Erin got on the treadmill next to me. I wanted to hang out and talk to her for a bit.  I told her about the barre class on Friday morning. She wants to go with me, and then get coffee after. I was happy that she wanted to go with me. It is always cool to have a friend to go to classes like that with.
After I got off the treadmill, I went home and got a shower, and made some lunch. I put in a load of laundry. I checked on the dinner that was cooking in the Crockpot. Then I decided to look at my work e-mail. I saw that one of my professors, for one of my grad school classes e-mailed us a syllabus and said that the course should be up on course web sometime this week, so we can see the readings and assignments that are due. I had a harsh reality check. I looked at the text books that they are offering there are 5 of them. I instantly started to get so nervous. I saw that I only had two things due for our first class, which I was happy about.
When Drew got home with the groceries, I helped him put everything away. I told him about my syllabus and how it was sent today via e-mail. I told him that I was so nervous. He said, “Awwe you are going to do so well baby.” I said, “Thank you, but I am nervous.” He was there for me and we talked it out, but I just had so much on my mind.
After dinner, I read through my textbook list. Drew asked me if I wanted to order them now? I said, “Please if that would be okay?” He said, “Definitely baby, you can start reading, while you are off and get a head start. I am so thankful for him. I really am. I don’t know what I would do without him.
After I ordered the textbooks, we went to go visit Grandma. When we arrived at the rehab facility, it reminded me of where my mom’s, mom was when she was in a nursing home. There were older people roaming the hallways in their wheel chairs, older people in bed, asleep, or up watching television. It was depressing. I hate it that his grandma is in a place like this.
When we walked past this older woman, she was in a wheel chair, and had a hospital gown on, and no blanket covering her. She was saying, “Help me. Get me out of here. I want to go home” (We found out later she has Alzheimer’s). It was so sad. When we arrived, to  Grandma’s room, we walked in and she was up eating dinner in bed.  She looked okay, but not herself. I felt so terrible for her. Andrew’s mom was due to arrive shortly.
When my mother-in-law came in, she brought us some cheese from Thanksgiving, that we had given to her. We told her she could keep the extra, but she didn’t realize that and packed them up for us, and put some ice in a zip-lock bag and sealed it, so it will stay cold. I thought that was weird but whatever.
After we visited with Grandma for about an hour so, it was time to go home and get ready for a new week.  I still had some things to do around the house. It was a short week, but still had to be at work.